Sunday, December 18, 2011
As it begins to thunder outside the furbabies & I wait for the rain to begin. We have had a nice lazy day today, watching movies, getting a crockpot meal ready to cook tomorrow while I am at work for a potluck with my Reiki group tomorrow night. The clock is striking 10 p.m. & it is almost time to turn in for the night & get a good night's sleep in preparation for the work week.
The proximity of Christmas means it is one month to my next birthday. A milestone birthday. I have been thinking about my life quite a bit lately. November marked the 7th anniversary of my brother's death at age 47, December 1st marked the first anniversary of my Mom's death, & it has been 5 months since my beloved Miss Evelyn crossed over. I will not be sad to see 2011 pass from view. It has been a hard year. A year filled with so much. As Sparky said Saturday, it's a wonder either of us are sane. I know the stress probably has exacerbated the flareup of my thyroid problems - my counts are way out of whack & I am on my second change in dosage plus a complete change of medications twice. We shall see how I am doing when I see the doctor the 30th. Lately I have felt just plain awful. My head hasn't been right, feels like it could just explode & I am very, very cranky not to mention how fatigued I am by noon each day. Ready to get the levels back to "normal" so I can feel better. But I am blessed. I just have an out of whack thyroid.
With all that has happened in the last 12 months & my approaching birthday, I have been reflecting on how I want to spend my 3rd Act. In listening to an interview with Jane Fonda on her new book she mentioned she divided her life into 3 Acts- The first 30 yrs, the 2nd 30 yrs, & the last 30 yrs. So I figure I am going to be starting my 3rd Act in 2012. I could say it is the last year of my 2nd Act. But whichever, I have lived far more years than I have ahead of me. I have reinvented myself more than once. I can name the Acts based on who I was during each of those 30 yr periods. I think I will devote all of next year's writings to revisiting those Acts. Revisiting my personas. Explaining how I became who I am today - how I came to my authentic self.
So, as I celebrate Winter Solstice on 12/21/2011, Christmas, then New Year's Eve I will begin to formulate my writings. Begin to fully, deeply explore my life & document the complete Journey. It will be quite a story, many stories in fact, some sad, some tragic, some happy, some exciting, some scary, some boring, some funny, but all of them honest.
As we close out 2011 dear ones, I wish you Merry Christmas, Happy New Year, & above all blessings, love, enlightenment, joy, & fulfillment. May your Journey in 2012 be filled with excitement, understanding, tolerance, acceptance, & peace. May we all know Peace on Earth, Goodwill towards All Creatures Great & Small. May we all find acceptance, understanding, & tolerance for that which we cannot see, for that which we do not understand, for those who differ from us in beliefs, cultures, lifestyles, & may we all know the Unconditional Love of Mother God, Father God, All that Is, & All that will ever Be. Light, Love, & Blessings, dear ones!!