Friday, February 27, 2009
Then.... Surprise, Surprise!! I am FULLY vested & the money is earning 4%. I have OK Teacher Retirement.
So, once more the Journey has become easier. Thanks to Great Spirit!!!
I am anxiously anticipating the next bit of clarity.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
It's not Spring yet, but I am seeing signs that a new Season will soon arrive in OK. Trees are beginning to bud & some to flower, daffodills are blooming in many yards, grass is starting to look more green. I like Spring. It offers the promise of new life, rebirth. That which has been dormant will once more spring to life. Much like ourselves when we have been in some sort of holding pattern-mentally, emotionally, professionally, or personally.
I think I have been waiting to exhale, so to speak, for quite some time. My brother had cancer, he got sicker, he was terminal, I took care of him, he died, & I had no idea how to live my life. For a solid year I just existed. Then I started living again very, very slowly. After 4 yrs & 4 months I am still figuring it out.
Then I was engaged to my first love. We got back in touch after so many years. I traveled to Seattle or he traveled to OK every three months. We were planning to start our life together after my brother died. Then when it came down to setting a final date, he balked. Didn't want to move to OK. I just couldn't move to Seattle at that time. He lives off a trust fund (that is running out BTW) & I was worried about the job market. So after much soul searching, I broke off the engagement. When that happened Sparky came back into my life (we have been back together now for 3 yrs-we were together for almost 3 yrs the first time & then apart for 3 yrs). At the end of the year I broke off all communications with the guy in Seattle because the conversations were leaving me in such a negative place-a place I just did not want to be.
I was out of work for 6 weeks this past summer (the company closed due to the recession). I have a good paying job now, but it does not challenge me. In fact I am quite bored. So I continue to look for another job. I know the right one will come along if I am just patient.
I am finally coming back into my own life. I like hanging out with Sparky but I do not want to be married to him. He is a great friend & takes very good care of me. We enjoy spending time together, we grew up together, our parents hung out together when we were kids, we know the same people, we have alot of the same memories of childhood, we went to the same school & knew/know the same people. He discusses his business decisions (he is an electrical contractor) with me. My furbabies love him. OMG!! I just had such an epiphany writing this--Sparky fills the void left by my brother in that we share a history from childhood. I have no other connection to my childhood as my brother was my only sibling. Sparky is an only child so I guess we fill the same void for each other. OMG what an Ah Hah moment.
NOTE: Sulustu, this really ties in with the message you gave me. The Journey in this relationship will become much easier now. I feel very peaceful, suddenly, in this part of my life. I know that the other situations will begin to reveal themselves now, too. The clarity will come in its appropriate time. Thanks!!
I suddenly feel very ready for Spring, for a rebirth & reawakening. I am ready to reconnect completely with myself, my Guides, my Totem, my Purpose. This Season should be enlightening & interesting. I feel ready to emerge from the cocoon in which I have wrapped myself. I am ready to live fully, experiencing Life completely.
"dance as though no one is watching,
love as though you have never been hurt,
sing as though no one is listening,
LIVE AS THOUGH HEAVEN IS ON EARTH"
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
appreciation in this world than for bread."
- Mother Teresa
I have found this to be so true in my own life. While I have never been belly swelling hungry, I have hungered for love & appreciation. Mostly from my birth family. I always think of the line from On Golden Pond where Jane Fonda's character says "I didn't think we were mad at each other, I just didn't think we liked each other very much". That is exactly the way I felt about my Dad. Didn't have a relationship even though my parents were married 35 yrs until my Daddy died. He was just a person who lived in the house & I spent most of my time being invisable so my parents wouldn't notice me. I was a very good student, never got in trouble, followed the rules, teachers loved me, & I never rocked the boat at home. The one or two times that I did were disasterous. So, two weeks after I graduated from high school I started college. I only came home when there was no other option & I married the first guy who asked. Then I began the search for his love & appreciation. Whatever he gave me was never enough because my own personal well was so dry. It took many years, a disasterous 2nd marriage, & much therapy to find out how to love myself. I have learned to nurture the little girl who had such hunger. She is peaceful now & so am I.
Monday, February 16, 2009
A Birth Certificate shows that we were born
A Death Certificate shows that we died
Pictures show that we lived!
Have a seat . . . Relax . . .
And read this slowly.
That just because two people argue,
It doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, It doesn't mean they do love each other.
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you MUST forgive them for that.
even over the longest distance.
I have the right to be angry, But that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
what types of experiences you've had And what you've learned from them
and less to do with
how many birthdays you've celebrated.
to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.
the world doesn't stop for your grief.
may have influenced who we are, But, we are responsible for who we become.
when A friend cries out to you -
you will find the strength to help.
do not make you a decent human being.
are taken from you too soon.
'The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything; They just make the most of everything.
Thank you God for all the wonderful people who have helped
me throughout my journey of life.
Friday, February 13, 2009
If you fear Friday the 13th, then batten down the hatches. This week's unlucky day is the first of three this year.
The next Friday the 13th comes in March, followed by Nov. 13. Such a triple whammy comes around only every 11 years, said Thomas Fernsler, a math specialist at the University of Delaware who has studied the number 13 for more than 20 years.
By the numbers
Here are 13 more facts about the infamous day, courtesy of Fernsler and some of our own research:
1. The British Navy built a ship named Friday the 13th. On its maiden voyage, the vessel left dock on a Friday the 13th, and was never heard from again.
2. The ill-fated Apollo 13 launched at 13:13 CST on Apr. 11, 1970. The sum of the date's digits (4-11-70) is 13 (as in 4+1+1+7+0 = 13). And the explosion that crippled the spacecraft occurred on April 13 (not a Friday). The crew did make it back to Earth safely, however.
3. Many hospitals have no room 13, while some tall buildings skip the 13th floor.
4. Fear of Friday the 13th - one of the most popular myths in science - is called paraskavedekatriaphobia as well as friggatriskaidekaphobia. Triskaidekaphobia is fear of the number 13.
5. Quarterback Dan Marino wore No. 13 throughout his career with the Miami Dolphins. Despite being a superb quarterback (some call him one of the best ever), he got to the Super Bowl just once, in 1985, and was trounced 38-16 by the San Francisco 49ers and Joe Montana (who wore No. 16 and won all four Super Bowls he played in).
6. Butch Cassidy, notorious American train and bank robber, was born on Friday, April 13, 1866.
7. Fidel Castro was born on Friday, Aug. 13, 1926.
8. President Franklin D. Roosevelt would not travel on the 13th day of any month and would never host 13 guests at a meal. Napoleon and Herbert Hoover were also triskaidekaphobic, with an abnormal fear of the number 13.
9. Superstitious diners in Paris can hire a quatorzieme, or professional 14th guest.
10. Mark Twain once was the 13th guest at a dinner party. A friend warned him not to go. "It was bad luck," Twain later told the friend. "They only had food for 12."
11. Woodrow Wilson considered 13 his lucky number, though his experience didn't support such faith. He arrived in Normandy, France on Friday, Dec. 13, 1918, for peace talks, only to return with a treaty he couldn't get Congress to sign. (The ship's crew wanted to dock the next day due to superstitions, Fernsler said.) He toured the United States to rally support for the treaty, and while traveling, suffered a near-fatal stroke.
12. The number 13 suffers from its position after 12, according to numerologists who consider the latter to be a complete number - 12 months in a year, 12 signs of the zodiac, 12 gods of Olympus, 12 labors of Hercules, 12 tribes of Israel, 12 apostles of Jesus, 12 days of Christmas and 12 eggs in a dozen.
13. The seals on the back of a dollar bill include 13 steps on the pyramid, 13 stars above the eagle's head, 13 war arrows in the eagle's claw and 13 leaves on the olive branch. So far there's been no evidence tying these long-ago design decisions to the present economic situation.
Origins of Friday the 13th
Where's all this superstition come from? Nobody knows for sure. But it may date back to Biblical times (the 13th guest at the Last Supper betrayed Jesus). By the Middle Ages, both Friday and 13 were considered bearers of bad fortune.
Meanwhile the belief that numbers are connected to life and physical things - called numerology - has a long history.
"You can trace it all the way from the followers of Pythagoras, whose maxim to describe the universe was 'all is number,'" says Mario Livio, an astrophysicist and author of "The Equation That Couldn't Be Solved" (Simon & Schuster, 2005). Thinkers who studied under the famous Greek mathematician combined numbers in different ways to explain everything around them, Livio said.
In modern times, numerology has become a type of para-science, much like the meaningless predictions of astrology, scientists say.
"People are subconsciously drawn towards specific numbers because they know that they need the experiences, attributes or lessons, associated with them, that are contained within their potential," says professional numerologist Sonia Ducie. "Numerology can 'make sense' of an individual's life (health, career, relationships, situations and issues) by recognizing which number cycle they are in, and by giving them clarity."
Am I superstitious, YES!! Am I worried about Friday the 13th, NO. I do, however, have certain superstitions that I abide by without fail:
- Never, never take the broom with you when you move to a new abode (I am VERY adamant about this one).
- Never walk under a ladder-this is also a safety issue, I think, & just plain common sense
- Never open an umbrella in the house
- Always throw salt over my right shoulder if it is spilled
- Always say "Bless you" when someone sneezes
- Never send ivy to a new Mother at the hospital. If ivy is sent to the hospital, never take it home
I also carry a small medicine bag (cannot disclose the contents--bad luck) that holds my "charms".
Yes, I am a paradox. I know this--a modern day woman with superstitions & who practices many "old" ways. I light candles & incense, I set up alters, I believe in Spirits, Guides from the Other Side, Demons (I have seen them), Ghosts (I've seen these, too), & I have the Gift of Second Sight (ESP) sometimes I just "know" things, & I honor those feelings. I only get into trouble when I do not listen to my intuition. Just this week I was offered a job that sounded very good & seemed to be perfect for me for many reasons, but something felt hinky so I turned it down.
I hope your Friday the 13th is a blessed, happy, fulfilling, & joyful day filled with sunshine & laughter.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
So, just wanted my Tribe to know that while it was close I am safe. Please pray for all those who are not, for those who lost their homes, for those who lost their loved ones. If you can help in other ways please contact the Red Cross.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Wish I was in Key West--checked prices. Couldn't afford it if it was Free LOL!!
Wish I could make a living as a beach bum.
Wish I was in the sun, meditating, figuring out how to make a living without working so blasted hard.
Wish I was on the beach!!! I am missing the beach, the sun, the laidback existence.
All is good, I just miss the BEACH!!!
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Monday, February 2, 2009
by Lambert-Potter, sung by Coven
Listen, children, to a story