Friday, February 12, 2010

The Journey -- 2010

                                                                      Wolf Goddess

reprinted courtesy of Lori Karels

I saw this print several weeks ago & was so taken by the work-it spoke to my Spirit.  You should definately check out Lori's work by accessing her website listed above.  She does wonderful paintings.  Fairies, Goddesses,  & Animals.  She is truly talented.  The above print will soon be gracing my wall.


Another dear friend succumbed to cancer (my arch enemy) this week.  Gary Jackson was such a support to me & my darlin' brother,Dave, during Dave's illness.  I know Gary counseled & prayed with Dave many times.  He was always there to lend a shoulder to cry on or a compassionate ear when I needed to talk.  He also gave me a beautiful shadow box with one of Dave's uniform shirts as well as one of his badges.  I am adding Dave's photo to it as well.  I am still not ready to hang it in my home but someday it will grace one of my walls.  Gary never failed to meet me with a hug anytime I saw him, & always told me "I love you".  He faced his illness with grace, courage, & an abiding faith.  Gary was a reserve officer with the Ada PD for 10 yrs, and he wore my brother's APD lapel pins for the past 5 yrs. That meant alot to him & to me.  Thank you, Gary, for being my friend, my surrogate brother, & a comfort to me always.  I love you, too!!  You are now on the Other Side, free from pain, & reunited with your brothers in blue who went before you.  I know you were welcomed with open arms & rejoicing when you stepping out of the light into your next Journey.  See you later, in our Father's house.


My beloved wolves have returned to Washington State, & they sent a message to me letting me know this through my dear friend Sulustu in Spokane.  Check out his recent blog "Fathers & Visions" at   It is one of the most moving pieces I have read in awhile.  I was inspired, & moved to tears.


I have been moving toward something, something wonderful, something enlightening recently.  Everything I read leads me closer to that which I am meant to see, experience, & live.  I am becoming more & more unsatisfied with the worldly life.  I hunger for that which is unseen. I am looking to begin the part of my Journey that is anchored in the spiritual, the supernatural.  My totem, the Great Grey Wolf, is always near.  My dreams have been strange, but not frightening.  There is great meaning in them.  Some that I get, some that I think will be revealed later.  I am beginning to re-immerse myself in meditation, yoga, my spiritual reading, as well as my reading on my heritage & Native spirituality.  I am emersing in the cycles of the Moon, the changes of the Seasons.  I am trying to figure out just how to live a more fulfilling life that most likely will take me away from where I am.   Maybe not physically, but certainly mentally, emotionally, & spiritually.  Strangely,  my relationship with my Mom has been healed.  It came about so organically that I was just drawn in very naturally.  I realized that one day I was no longer angry with her, I forgave her.  I accept her for who she is & somehow on some level I believe she has accepted me for who I am.  She seems to see me differently.  More truthfully.  And she speaks to me on a more truthful level.  I believe this is all a part of my spiritual growth toward my true Calling. 


It seems that my writings will now follow my Journey.  The emerging feelings, the Enlightenment.  I have been rereading my journals, my fiction, my stories lately.  I am being lead toward my writing more & more.  So, this year my blog will reflect all that I am experiencing.  I hope ya'll enjoy taking the Journey with me.  It should be an interesting ride.  When you think of me, see me with the Full Moon over my shoulder, the Great Wolf by my side as we Journey toward my next Adventure.

blessed be...

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