Friday, October 3, 2008


If I should stay I would only be in your way

So I'll go, and yet I know I'll think of you each step of the way

And I will always love you

I will always love you

Bittersweet memories That's all I have, and I'm taking with me

Goodbye, please don't you cry

Cause we both know, I'm not what you need

But, I will always love you I will always love you I hope life

Treats you kind

And I hope you have all you dream of

I wish you joy And happiness

But above all this, I wish you love

And I will always love you I will always love you

Yes, I will always love you

I will always love you
This song was playing in my head all night. So I thought why?? Every now & then a ghost will wander through my heart--a ghost of a love gone bad, a lover left (for valid reasons), a memory of all the good times that could not overshadow the bad. Still, ex #2 was, is, will always be the one I loved beyond all reason-an addiction I could not get past. The one who will always hold my heart-even though he stomped it good. Still, love knows no reason-it is what it is when you give your heart away. Just because we brought out the worst in each other does not mean there was no love. At times, the love was all that kept us together. But, a love like that can kill you when it goes over an edge. This one crossed that point & I knew I had to leave. It was hard to do. I have no regrets about leaving, but I sure do miss the good times. So...Cowboy I do love you, just like I promised that will never change. But I had to save myself because I could not save you. I hope you have conquered your demons & found peace, contentment, & again love.
Blessed be...


butterflies said...

Do we choose love or does it choose us??
You and me have talked about it many times.
I still dont know.
Today I feel quite angry and would never tell anyone but you my friend. I feel angry at James for floating my boat and then jumping off,leaving me to save myself.
After 18mths you would think Id be past that huh? maybe I havent really dealt with it or does it just always come back?
I hope Cowboy has found himself certainly have.
I miss you and love you so much my dearest sister!

Bigg said...

I love Dolly Parton, and I had a Cowboy in my life once, too.
Thanks for being there.

Morgan said...

I remember the first time I heard that song, really heard the lyrics. It was just after RacerX had left and I'd broken up with Rover and it left such a powerful impression and really captured what I felt at the time. I do understand about how love can be bad for you, can leave your soul in tatters. Funny how when you think you're immune, when you're strong and seem invulnerable to it, it can hit you and tear you away from yourself. Pretty powerful stuff.

Susie said...

I've always loved that Dolly Parton song too. (but my one true love is still with me!)
Thanks for the birthday wishes!

JenX67 said...

i definitely connect with that song: "above all - I wish you love."