Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Night is darkest before Dawn, coldest before Sunrise...

No matter how long the winter, spring is sure to follow. ~Proverb


Not only does this apply to the Seasons but also to our lives.  No matter how dark the moment, how lost we feel, Light does come & we find ourselves once more.   Once again able to walk in Joy, in Grace, & in Love.  I think that is the most enlightening part of going through "things" be it a tragedy, a death, a loss of any kind, or just a dark, lonely period of life.  I learned long ago that I could wallow in the self-pity, remorse, sadness, or "wishing it was all different" mode, blame others, or I could face it, deal with it, learn the lesson I was meant to learn from the experience, & then move forward without regret.  Move forward & live with Joy & Grace.  Spread Love, a pure honest authentic Love, to those with whom I come in contact.

Believe me, it is not easy to face all situations with Grace much less give Love to someone who has just royally rained on my parade.  I was sharing my last two weeks experiences with my boss with a very dear friend last night & he said to me "Obviously, he does not know with whom he is dealing"  I laughed because that was so true.  I could just turn & walk away or take offense (which I do sometimes, silently) at what he says to me & how he treats me.  I could really mess with him, but I do not.  It would just not be right.  I have to consciously make myself think how scary it must be for someone in their 70's who cannot even turn on the computer, much less get information from it to have to rely on someone else, completely, for the information necessary to run their business.  It takes a huge amount of trust. Therein lies the problem, he really does not trust or appreciate what I do.  That hurts.  So, I have to get past Ego & take a deep breath, figuratively walk away, regroup, then continue doing my job.  Grace.  I ask for Grace each day, moment by moment sometimes.  Because when I have Grace & Love for my fellow person I have Joy within myself. 

Life is too short to live without Grace, Love, & Joy.  Honor is important too.  I know I am an honorable person, a "handshake" kind of person.  I give my word on something & it is not necessary to have me sign something or "promise".  I gave my word, I "shook" on it therefore I will do it no matter what else happens.

Oh, I still blow-off steam, vent my frustrations, talk about how I would like to handle some situations, but in my heart of hearts I know that I will always do the "right" thing no matter how unjust the situation may be.  Because, in the end, I have to live with me.  In the end, I have to face the woman in the mirror.  And, ultimately, I have to answer for the decisions I make, the actions I take.  Karma will bite you in the butt if you are not careful.  The Universe will shift, & I prefer that shift be a positive one.  So, I strive each day to walk with Grace, live in Love, feel Joy.  That is, for me, being authentic & true to myself.

~~blessed be...

1 comment:

Territory Mom said...

Thank you. Thank God he led me to your blog. Thank you, thank you