~~ Lao Tzu "
This picture was taken on a very happy night at Charlies Last Stand in OKC. Dave & James were both terminal with the same cancer. Bev, James' wife, is my heart-sister - the one who best understands, the one with whom I share a history of so much. Dave brought these people into my life. I guess he knew that Bev & I would need each other to lean on through the years we have left to walk through this life.
Several weeks ago James came to me in my dreams. I had been going through a rocky spot. Nothing too serious, just a bit of discontent. Trying to figure out what to do next with my life. Then, there was James. It was a beautiful visit, brought me much peace, & while I am still interpreting some of the message I have been much more myself-peaceful, spirit-filled, joyful, happy.
Last Sunday I was mowing the yard. I had moved to the backyard & was running around the grass on my Yardman Bug (small riding mower) with my mind very quiet just enjoying the day (I meditate quiet often on the mower-the hum of the engine quiets my Spirit & mind). Then out the corner of my eye as I made a turn I caught the movement of the door opening that leads from the garage to the patio. I kinda jumped then realized it was my brother, Dave. He was there but a moment standing on my patio. As he did in life, & now from the Other Side, he spoke in my heart. Just checking in, I'm ok. Me, too I said out loud. I miss you. Love ya, bro! And he was gone in a heartbeat. Back I am sure to riding that Harley that I promised he would climb on when he crossed over.
It had been awhile since I had seen Dave. Strange, I had just mentioned to Sparky a couple of days before that I see dead people quite often (although I do not believe they are dead, just crossed over to the Other Side living the next Adventure), that I hear Spirits talking to me, I have visons, & get messages, but over the last several years nothing from Dave. Guess my little brother had to prove me wrong (he liked to do that).
After that visit something shifted within me. I think it was a complete, final settling of my Spirit that had not yet occured after Dave crossed over. It was as if something actually lifted from within me. Like a deep, cleansing breath. A reminder of what I have always believed...there is no death, no ending of a Spirit. We leave the body that no longer serves us in human form behind, but we-the True essence of us, our Spirit- continue to live. We cross over to the Other Side. The home from which we came when we decided to have a human experience. We are all Spiritual beings who have always lived. We will always be alive. Do we reincarnate & live many human lives? I have no answer for that. I have, all my life, experienced de ja vu. I have, in the past, gotten what I thought was a glimpse of a past life. Where I lived, who I was in an abstract sort of way. I have felt I walked a particular street before, in a place where I had never been in this life. So, that will be an answer I will get as my Journey continues. I like the concept of reincarnation. I understand the need to "get it right" as we walk through our lives. Do we get chances for do overs when we cross over with mistakes, missteps still on our hearts? I don't know, but I wouldn't mind being able to take all I have learned in this Journey & apply it to another Journey. All I do know is this...death of the body is not death of the Spirit. There is much between the seen & unseen worlds. And I believe deeply in the unseen. I have felt it all my life.
I will miss my brother & James, & all the others who have gone before until I am again united with them on the Other Side. But, I will grieve no more. I will remember, I will honor their lives. I will laugh at the funny memories. I will cry at the unfairness of lives cut too short, too soon. But, I am alive. My Journey is not yet over. I have much to do. Places to go, people to see, destiny to fulfill, lives to impact. I have much left to accomplish. James & Dave have reminded me of that.
Thanks my brothers!! Til we meet again, on the Other Side...or the next time you know I need a visit.